How are you?
It’s been a while since I’ve last updated any content here.
There are many things going on in life, and I am trying to register my thoughts and fashion them accordingly so that it can be put as a whole image in front of my eyes; I am trying to align my life according to the system I’ve implemented somewhere online. But I’ll come back to that again later.
Anyway a lot has happened for the past few weeks. I’ve learnt new mental models, developed a system for running again, something I’ve delayed for the past couple of years. It’s still in its initial phase, so the system is still trying to cooperate with my body and mind and heart. Also I’ve reached a quarter century of life on earth, Alhamdulillah.
At this age I begin to realise many new things. Of them are values and principles which I believe many have understood at a reasonably sound age. I am only coming to terms of such words, and I can see how far I am lagging behind in life, far away from my peers who are doing well.
At twenty five my father got married. At twenty five I am struggling to stand up for myself and get a life. There’s a gap I am trying to cover, so playing catch up is a bit tiring, but that’s okay since an easy life begets a normal life, and I’m beginning to come to terms, how a life that is peppered with hardships is more meaningful than a life of comfort. I’ve experienced a life of comfort, and in reality, it’s destroyed me. But I don’t want to blame Allah ‘Azza Wa Jal for the mess in my life. In fact I am thankful He has given me these trials for I see them as a blessing in disguise. I have good thoughts of Him, and that He giving me these hardships so that I may not stay still in life, and that I need to move in order to make life happen.
I miss writing here, probably because I write about my relationship with Allah; I write about how I’m trying to overcome my struggles and connect them back to Him. I need more of that actually. I should do that on my new blog.
I hope to launch it soon; it’s been up and running since week 1. It’s week 14 and I will have to change my way of doing things from now on. Put simply, the new blog is supposed to be more organized and systematic. The ongoing challenge to write a post for 52 weeks is going good so far and I hope I get to complete this challenge. It’s making me pay attention to my life and how I’m going about it.
Until then, I need to connect back to the Qur’an and Sunnah; these words seem estranged to me these days. O Allah, help me to worship You and remember You and give thanks to You. Aameen.