The burden that we cannot bear.

As with all things in life, the initial phase is always difficult. New school, new environment, new people, new knowledge; at first you feel out of place because the territory you’ve barged in is unknown to you. A barren land awaits you ahead.  We get all pumped up moving forward, but we always forget that life needs to be lived steadily. We need the balance, or else, well, we’ll be imbalanced. We tire ourselves, burning all the energy we have only at this initial phase of the journey we’re embarking in. I know for a fact, that the moment I’m feeling the burnout, I’m not living life as it should be. I’m not doing the balanced act that each and every one of us is supposed to do. I’m pushing myself too hard perhaps, that I forgot to take breaks in between the actions throughout the day.

Rest. Rest for a while. Recharge. I am happy that I am able to raise my hands and plead to Him of life’s troubles, how incapable I am of living a life of righteousness, in obedience to Him alone. But we all try. We all try our best to obey His commands and stay far away from His prohibitions. The peace and tranquility settled in when I walked to the Masjid tonight for the Isya’ prayer. I am reminded how grateful I should be that He has chosen me to be one of the attendees to perform the prayer together with other believers. It definitely lifted my burden that I was facing.

I have been out of shape physically for the longest time ever, and it’s damaging me. It’s not nice to be unhealthy. Knowing the person I am, I treasure sports, health and fitness, but an overdose of life’s distractions has hit me rock bottom. I’m learning to stand up and walk again, into the path of wellness. Sometimes we throw away life’s treasures, like health and free time, only to rue these losses at a later age in life.

Life’s peeling away. I’m slowly peeling away from a loss that’s occured for ages. It’s time I gain some profit again, and I begin so by writing away my thoughts. I need to declutter them, and then let these thoughts be back in order again.

There is a verse in the Qur’an that we’ve come across many times.

{Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity…} Surah Al-Baqarah : 286


Sometimes it makes me think, “Alright, I know Allah won’t burden me with what I’m not capable of…”

But then again, what’s my capacity?

Because of this, it’s made me push myself beyond the imaginary lines I have created around me, that is, the comfort zone. How much will we push ourselves out of our comfort zone in order to grow forward? And perhaps, upwards?

As I’m closing this post, again, I am thankful that I am given a chance to reflect and write down my thoughts. I am, or we all need to constantly rectify our affairs, maybe just take a moment to sit down and dump all our thoughts on paper, be it digital or analog. Declutter. Please declutter. It will give you more clarity into the lenses you are using to see the world.




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