Daily realisation

If our lives are driven by irrational fears of the unknown, then we’d be living empty lives. If we keep breathing in the air of anxiety, we’d suffocate to an early death, not of the physical, but of emotional and spiritual death.

But we choose to stay in the past because we believe we’re not going to get something better in the future, something better and lasting. We choose to wait and love somebody when it is clear as the daylight that, they have no room for us to enter into their hearts.

We choose to keep their words they’d said in the past hoping they’d still hold true to them. But we’re human beings. We forget. We forget what we’d told them of promises that comes in the form of prose or poetry. Some died waiting for the love to return, hoping one day a miracle would pop out of nowhere, and the person would come back into their life, learning that you’d been yearning for his/her presence. But most of the time, they’ve probably moved on with their life. And then comes the realization, that you’ve been waiting….waiting….waiting for nothing.

I only stayed because of those lines of poetry you had written in the past. If you ever read this, I hope you’ll find them someday. I hope you know, that I only waited because of those words of hope you gave to me. I’m sorry if I’m not the one you choose to be with. But I want you to know, there was someone who waited for you, only because he cares for you. But I’m mistaken. I saw myself in you,  but you didn’t see yourself in me.

My hope is to fade away now, like how the wind blows the grains of sand in the Sahara desserts; let me disappear and dive back into the world of exploration.

I am missing, missing the days of remembering The One. Let those days come back to me Ya Allah.

 

 

there’s a part of me you’ll never know

the only thing I’ll never show.

 

{…So (for me) patience is most fitting. And it is Allah (Alone) Whose help can be sought against that which you assert.”} Surah Yusuf: 18 (Muhsin Khan)

As with life, we say Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli haal.

Life has to go on.

 

 

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